Everyone has problems don’t they? And problems should be solved before they have the chance to develop and overwhelm us.

I get angry sometimes. But that is not the problem. Anger is fine and is not a sin. The problem is what I do or say when I do get angry. I just got angry at a customer who complained and made a lot of noise about not getting a signal reception near where I work despite my 100% signal at my workplace. I talked to him and said that we cannot guarantee signal reception EVERYwhere. He started saying “You people cheating… lousy… etc etc.” I chose to ignore him and attend to other potential customers. I was fuming inside. That customer returned the flyer I gave him and I did something out of my anger: I squashed the flyer and threw it in his direction. Man I was angry. B****** .

This was just one of the many many not-so-memorable occasions in my life.

I knew I should just kept my cool and be nice. But this is my problem. At the heat of the moment, venting the anger might cause me to do stupid things. I need help, O God. Sorry for my stupid actions and I pledge to control my anger once again. Sadly, this pledge has been broken many times already. I need a renewal of my mind. A transformation of my inner self. Sorry Jesus for sinning against You. Please forgive me.To all of you, Ern Sheong is actually not a very good role model, despite many thinking that I am so. Nonsense. I have my own problems. But I am working daily to change my attitude and the way I react. I know what is happening and I don’t want to let it get out of hand. God bless you all.

Patience and tolerance. Patience and tolerance.

I went back to Malacca recently (my hometown) and made an observation I wasn’t aware of until now.

One cousin of mine is now already a Singaporean (she took up a scholarship which requires her to be a Singaporean). Another cousin of mine is going to work in Singapore or Australia. I have another two cousins who are already Australian PRs. Opps, make that three, another cousin of mine who is now in Malaysia is also a PR holder who has plans to reside in Australia in the future.

Large scale uprooting.

This is only my family. Among friends, the number of fingers that I have is not enough to count those who have already left for “greener pastures.”

What is happening to Malaysia now? Where will I be? This world is becoming so globalized. People go wherever they want. Is migration a bad thing? I don’t have the answers, but I just want to trust Him and acknowledge Him in all that I do.

With that, I can never go wrong.

Many many thanks to the many many people who wished me Happy Birthday last Dec 20th! I really appreciate it and God bless you all!

Starting from today, Blogger will serve to record my thoughts, views and takes on matters that matter to me. On the other hand, recordings of notable events and happenings will be shifted to ernsheong.wordpress.com. Why I am doing this? Well, let’s just say that I want to try new things. =) But actually I have noticed that this blog is really all about my rantings and ravings about my inner thought that rage in my mind more than anything else. So I’m starting another blog to document my external happenings.

Let’s just hope that I will now update my blog more frequently now.

Hello world indeed! This is Ern Sheong and I have started this wonderful blog to update you about the notable events that happen in the journey of my life in this world. Don’t know me? Nothing to worry about. After reading through this blog you will DEFINITELY know me better. See you in later posts!

First of all it was the Singapore International Science Challenge. My team, comprising of myself, Sasha and YiSong put in a tremendous amount of effort in the Science Challenge component only to be denied a prize (be it Distinction or Champion) by a winning team from VJC who did not even present any scientific substantiation in their presentation. In their presentation during the closing ceremony, I was so angry since our content was so similar to theirs, and yet we did not win anything. Presentation wise, I felt that we did a very good job too! SISC has very biased judging it seems. A big shock and setback, but one with a lesson on how to cope with failure, especially when I have put in my best effort already.

Secondly today it was the National Economics and Mutual Funds Quiz. My teacher, Mr Derek Lee, once told me that I did very well in the selection quiz and with that, I was hoping to be able to be one of the chosen ones to represent the school in the final stage of the quiz. But today they informed all those who were selected, and you guessed it right, I was not one of them… I prepared relatively hard for this quiz, to the extent that I bought a S$40 Investment book from Borders just to study for this quiz. Once again I have learnt the lesson that when one party wins, there is another party at the other end who loses and feels dejected (in this case, that party was me) Not that it matters so much in the future. I will prove that even though I did not participate in this quiz, I will learn more about investment on my own and apply it in real life and perhaps be the next Warren Buffet! *chuckles* Well, gotta look at life in a positive way!

Romans 8:28 says, “… all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord, to those who are called according to His purpose.” I believe that something good will come out of all these miniature setbacks, and I am victorious in the Spirit of the Lord, now and forever. I know that the Lord has greater and better things in mind for me in the near future, and in the long run.

A month has passed since my last post and now Google lists my blog first when I type in “ern sheong” lol….

Nevertheless, I wish that I could keep you updated and entertained with my “happenings” in Singapore. Just that sometimes that is rather impossible to do=(… time constraint and all.

When am I coming back to Malaysia? Good question. It really depends on whether all my activities can actually end. Now preparing for a Chemistry Olympiad, which is in a week’s time. No big hopes though. Just trying my best and going all out for it. Taking SAT Subject Tests in December. Got some long distance runs to complete. AP and SAT Reasoning to prepare… NJC 2007 Orientation to meddle with, books to read, and a non-exhaustive list of things to do. Also a research attachment and a research report on the formation of nickel silicides to submit.

Unfortunately for me, I am not a very disciplined person. Now that exams are over, I sometimes indulge in Dota, a very addictive game which is quite fun to play, when I should be studying for my Chemistry Olympiad. Had my Physics Olympiad theory test two weeks ago, and it was better than expected nevertheless (actually it was lousy). So now I’m waiting for the results, and it determines whether I advance to the practical test stage.

Sigh, humans like to make many plans and forge many desires. I am guilty of this as I am always wondering what I can actually do to make myself more “marketable” to the universities which I intend to apply. Activities, activities and activities..All I know is that I should always be myself and not someone else. That is hard to do here, where peer pressure and extreme competition means that if you don’t run with the crowd, they will trample you. Not all academically excellent people do very well in life compared to those who possess exceptional talent, albeit not in exams. (might be a biased outlook, but I am biased anyway) Albert Einstein was told that he “would not make it in the future.” So was the great preacher Billy Graham. It amazes me how God uses ordinary people to do extraordinary things. This has been shown again and again in the Bible by characters in the bible and by the works of God. It is important though to be a good thinker, and be willing to change the way of thinking as time passes. Knowledge is nevertheless essential, but this is not equal scoring well in exams, as many students are obsessed with now… in Sg and even My, and worldwide. But since the game says score well in exams at this point in life, I guess all those my age now have to play the game and try play it well.

It is hard to get back on track when you feel lazy. Laziness is a sin, and yeah, I felt so lazy last week that I just neglected studying for the olympiads. Lesson: It’s all in the mind. When I asked God to help me get back on track, and prayed for focus, it slowly came back. The MOMENTUM. Some people quit before they even try. I just want to get back my momentum. But of course, relaxing is essential too, haha. Get in the mood of mugging.