I have decided
By Ern Sheong | January 25, 2010
Thanks again for all your prayers. I am really glad that I went to the retreat this past weekend.
A shocking thing that Jesus said in Matthew 7:
21“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?’ 23Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’
I have been doing many things in his name, but I really never really had a personal relationship with him. I did not understand it. It eluded me.
I made what I think to be a rather significant decision. I don’t think I ever made such a decision before in my life, though I have been in church for a number of years.
I have decided now to really give everything and follow Jesus, and am not turning back.
Just as vows said between a man and a woman promising to be with each other forever, this decision implies that I have chosen to be faithful and obedient to God no matter what happens in my life. I guess all this while I have been standing on middle ground, holding something back from God – my life. I still held the keys to the door of my house, refusing to give it up. I stubbornly wanted control of my own life. And in church I have been doing lots of things, but I served as if I owed God something, and I lacked the personal relationship with Him.
As in Matthew 13:
44“The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.
45“Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. 46When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.
The kingdom of heaven, the relationship with God, is a source of exceeding joy and worth, such that it is worth everything I ever had, and more. It is worthy of the sacrifice of everything. I feel very free and glad now. He now has the reigns to my life, and I no longer need to worry or be anxious, because ultimately Jesus is in control.
Luke 5:
Then Jesus said to Simon, “Don’t be afraid; from now on you will catch men.” 11So they pulled their boats up on shore, left everything and followed him.
Catching men. A wonderful phrase. Everything. They left everything. The meaning of it all is too wonderful for me. I wonder at its beauty and want to grow in its commitment..
I have decided to follow Jesus
I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
No turning back, no turning back.
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
No turning back, no turning back.
The world behind me, the cross before me;
The world behind me, the cross before me;
The world behind me, the cross before me;
No turning back, no turning back.
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
No turning back, no turning back.
Praise the Lord. He loves me so much, he keeps on calling me. I stand in awe of his mercy.
Topics: General | No Comments »
