Nothing
So I guess that “Guest” is right.
Ern Sheong is one heck of a self-centered person. (Sorry I deleted your message from my Shoutbox cause I was not in a right mood when I read it. Coupled with the fact that it was anonymous and I was not having the best of days.)
I guess no one likes it when they are being labeled as self-centered and proud. So do I. But then again I think that describes me best anyway. Self-centered, selfish and proud.
OK, so I admit. I am selfish, self-centered and proud. I guess it’s been a journey over many months and years tackling this problem within myself.
I try to be more generous and caring toward others, but somehow there is always something that I could have done more to help others. Worrying too much about myself, when there are many people out there who could benefit a lot from a bit more of concern from me.
So yeah. I’m still working on it, thinking about life in general a lot, and wondering about many things in Berkeley despite this self-imposed “busyness.” And yeah, I know I should worry and think less than I do now.
But hey, I wanna embrace a changed outlook from now on.
Even if there are many people who do much better than I do in many things, I just wanna be grateful for the opportunity to rub shoulders with all these wonderful people and actually learn all these stuff that I am learning now. Bad marks for some quizzes and midterms don’t really do much harm to me anymore. It’s just part of the journey. And life out there is like that. And hard work is becoming an enjoyment.
I feel down a lot of times and I pick myself up most of the times. For the rest, God picks me up. I just smile when I think that I am stressing myself out. I am learning to take things slowly and enjoying the process. Soon, Berkeley will come to pass for me. Better enjoy the moment and not sweat the small stuff.
Man I have to learn how to be cheerful and not take things so seriously all the time.
Loading ...
Hey Ern Sheong,
Come on.. If we all think about it, all of us are self centered and selfish. Who on earth does not think about their own well being? Who does not want the best for themselves ? The only difference between a useless self centered person and a normal human being is that a useless self centered one will go all out to get what he/she wants, to do things that benefit themselves, and that includes putting other people down and also causing harm to others. I sincerely do not think you’re that type of person. So, that makes you a normal healthy fine person! Just like the most of us.
Don’t worry about it. You just have to strive for the best and do whatever you want to do, as long as it is not ethically wrong..
Anyway, I totally get what you mean about not taking things to seriously. I have been studying my ass off for ECE exams, Psychology, Mechanics, Quantum physics, you name it, I’m studying for it. I figured that the more I study, the more mistakes I get due to the lack of sleep. So sometimes, I just need to take it easy, and relax. Study smart and not exactly too hard. I’m still in the process of improving myself here. WE ALL ARE.. So, a B here and there won’t kill. Even if it does harm your GPA, it still won’t matter too much if we don’t do horribly. Live our US experience, it will be with us for a lifetime. All the best buddy !
Ironically, a “busy” guy like me still blogs and comments in his own blog. yup liang hoong, realized that well, it’s all going to be okay. thanks for taking time to write here!
yeah hold on there in UIUC and take care!
Occasional criticism is good, and the way the header is designed and all stinks of some self absorbed blogger while an exaggerated sense of self importance… No need to defend yourself if you have a blog like that with your own domain to boot…