My fingers are itchy, so I am gonna scratch it with my keyboard
Yesterday I did something which I had always wanted to do.
Walk out of an exam early.
Despite not studying much for the Physics 7A Midterm due to the many other midterms jammed together (I started the night before the exam), I did pretty well.
Ironically, it was the day when I thought that I was pretty stupid. Like I don’t know what in the world was going on in lecture and everybody around me does (especially in my major, EECS, everyone is so smart.) So I went into the exam later in the evening expecting something hard again and walla, it was all done with 15 minutes to spare with checking. And it was really fun shooting down the 5 problems one by one. Maybe it was easy, I don’t know. I dare not say anything is easy these days. So I got a B in my Math midterm. And 21/40 in my CS61A midterm (that really sucks, average was like 27). But overall it was generally alright. Not the genius not the last guy in class, which is pretty fine.
Awesome. That Physics 7A restores some confidence in myself. I can actually do something awesomely.
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Well I am still thinking about what I could be doing with an Electrical and Computer Engineering degree. I still don’t have that big picture. For all I know I might be doing this major and then not utilizing an single thing studied in the future. But then again if I do not do this I don’t know what I can actually do. I don’t wanna be a doc, nor do I want to study business per se. I think I am liking the stuff I study but then again I am not too sure.
Initially I studied EECS because I wanted dabble in high-tech business. Who knows, maybe I am still into that. But I think I will definitely complete this degree and not switch majors, and perhaps minor in something like Industrial Engin and Operations Research.
I came to Berkeley not to have an easy and chilling time, hence the full-load I am doing. I hope to progress to more interesting courses in the next semesters after clearing all these requirements.
Unlike in Junior College where I had the excuse of not doing superbly in exams due to the many commitments in activities, I have no such excuse here since I am not joining anything in particular besides my church fellowship group. I should be acing it all but anyway.
Somehow I have a more holistic view of this thing called GPA. Some people are totally obsessed with it. They take easy classes so that they can rev-up their GPA to reach the ideal 4.0. I won’t do that. I will take the hard and interesting classes that I can find and toil through it. Much better (I feel) than an undergrad who does 4 courses a semester of which some are just easy breath courses here and there. (But then again I am doing 3 years and most are doing 4.) I came here not to get some two digit number. I want to challenge myself. I came to Berkeley to be kicked and be thrown around, not to have a jolly time (which I inevitably do have also due to my “funner” friends.)
Great. Let’s see how I hold out this semester.
Cheers everyone.
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Thanks for writing it. Many people study to get their two digit numbers. I do it because I enjoy doing it, because I want to challenge myself (if I don’t, don’t you think I’m suffering myself to continue studying in university when JC was such a hurdle from Sec), and because now that I am back with God, I want to glorify God in my studies.
I doubt I can take more than the normal 5-module load here, however, I want to challenge myself academically, but I do want to take good care of myself, too, and all-nighters are no good. xx Now I see the difference staying on-campus can make. Not reversing my decision to go back to hostel and have no life except studying, though. I like it like this.
Many people ask me why I take the business module I’m taking, when I can clear my other requirements, well, I take it out of interest and for fun. And I’m enjoying myself a lot. =)